Sunday, March 28, 2010

Depressed is The Right Word

lately I don't feel like myself. I hate everything about myself. I hate the fact that I still have 2 years in uni. I hate my oh-so-boring hair! I'm bored with my face. How can this be?? I'm bored with my face??? How can I live a long life if I hate my own freakin face???

sighh..

My life is just not like it was used to be anymore. My life used to have its excitement, but right now? idk. I hate everytime that I have to think about everything. I don't think it make any sense. but I also bored with all my clothes.. it feels like I want to burn it all.. burn everything..

I know how it sounded very terrible, but I cant help it. it's as if I don't have any life besides uni, assignment. and everyday I'm always annoyed, angry, bitching and stuff. I mean that wasn't me at all! I used to be very happy, cheerful, laugh on every little things and I don't care about a little thing that doesn't concern me. what is wrong with me?? really?

Well, right now I'm trying to find something to do to get my mind off of things. and I will definitely cut my hair this week or next week the latest. or else I will become crazy.. really.. sigh..

just hope everything will be better for me. and I have decided to do yoga again after a year break. I need all the positive energy back to me as soon as possible.. =)

wish me luck guyss..

love yaa